Came to my Rescue

So.....I have always wanted to ride one of these store carts, but NEVER had a legit reason :)  

Well, the other night, we had to go to Walmart and get some stuff...when presented with the option of staying in the car with her brother, or going in, she chose to go in and said, "MOM!  I can finally ride in one of those carts!"  

I can honestly say, I felt kind of bad for the people dodging out of the aisles from her and Aidan.  She was trying to weave through the racks,and kept banging into them- reversing, banging, reversing.  I was laughing so hard, and Aidan hid in the next section.  IT was a grand time!  She laughed hard too.  

Seriously though, we are learning that aisles are not made for handicapped people.  Handicapped bathroom stalls are not big enough for wheelchairs...walkers, and mom and Calli.  AND please if you are NOT handicapped, don't use the bathroom stall, park in the very needed spot, or use the handicapped changing room at HUP Radiation Oncology :)  They are much needed, you may not even realize you are doing it..I did not realize how much I used these special spots...but I did, and they are really needed by real handicapped people :)

Calli had a really terrible week last week- lost 6 lbs!  But, we made it through!  And today ends our second week!  YAY!!!!  Last week we saw the doctors several times, and they were all so worried, it was only her first week, and she was so weak and sick and could not do anything but lay in her bed, and sleep.  So, yesterday we went to see her oncologist for the second time this week, and her and all of the nurses were raving and rejoicing at how much better Calli looked, and felt and walked!  

People refer so many times to cancer treatments as "going through a tunnel."  They often refer to seeing the light at the end.  My precious aunt had cancer, and she sends us encouragement and notes weekly, and said "I think of it rather, as a covered bridge."

A covered bridge.  Yes that is it.  As you are going through the darkness, suddenly the light gleams through the planks of wood, and you can see the beauty in it....it breaks through the dark, lighting the way out.  

We are ever changing, having to fit into this new mold that God has placed before us.  Bending, being pliable, moldable.  Life is changing each day.  Mike is such a wonderful man, he works so hard all day long to provide for us.  He comes home each night and takes Aidan to his TaekwonDo classes.  It is what they did together before this...so he continues.  He looks at maps for me, and tries to find alternate routes for the way home and there, so I don't have to do another 2 hours in traffic with a tired and sick Calli.  I usually have running around, yes more running...to do after we get home, to prepare for the next day, or just to get prescriptions, groceries etc....each night I have come home and all of the dishes are done, laundry is folded and he is wiping the counters.  I cry, I just cry, because I don't have to ask, I don't want to.  He is so tired himself, but he is self-less and just blesses me.

Each day we have been so blessed to have a traveling mate or two!  Family and friends, have been helping go down with us.  They might not think that they are doing much, but the extra hands, support and smiles are price-less gifts.  Yesterday One of my best friends and her daughter, which is one of Calli's best friends went with us.  They mentioned on the way home, that their family just got a new horse they were boarding. Well, Calli said on the way home, that she was feeling good, and she wanted to stop by and see it!  This is the same horse farm, that as a child, I would walk to daily.  I would go after my paper route, and talk to the horses, and watch the people riding them.  IT was therapy to me.  So we went and were so blessed, to pet, and watch the horses, talk to them, hug them and I even kissed one or two on the nose.  There is just something about a horses nose,and mouth that is so soft and comforting.  Did you ever dare to touch one?  They are like velvet.

We had a good time talking with her parents, and spending time with them.  They are so very precious people to me.  They are humble people, they work so hard taking care of other people's horses.  Each day, God is revealing himself to them and showing them who He is.  As we were leaving, Jimmy looked at my tires.   HE said- "Hey wait a minute, you need tires Lucy!"  My tires were totally bald, I mean, ready to blow.  I mean who looks at people's tires when they are leaving?  Jimmy Soley does.  IT turns out that his mechanic had just given him 4 brand new tires, that he did not need.  Well, Jimmy was trying to give them away, and asked a few people, but no one needed them.  I did.  I do not believe in chance, I believe in God.  I believe that God sent us to the farm... for therapy and new tires.  

I believe that God is using the humble people seeking after His heart and He is speaking to them.  "Jimmy, look at Lucy's tires,"  He obeyed.  He is listening to the voice of God.  The still small voice of God.  He is speaking.  Are you listening?  You may just think it is your mind, but it isn't.  God wants to use you to bless others, to be a light and a support.  Jimmy heard God, he may not of even know it was Him speaking, but he listened and he gave with all of his heart.  What else is he speaking today?  Can we be bold and step out, and move in His will, His direction.

Do you ever walk by someone and feel like you are supposed to put your hand on their shoulder, or just smile at them?  I do, am I nuts, maybe, but I believe that it is God speaking to our hearts, to touch another.  Step out of your comfort zone, someone may just need a mile, a pat on the shoulder, a set of tires.

This may not make any sense to you.  The cross of Christ is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to those who are being saved, it is the power of God.  

The heavens declare the Glory of God.  I want to join in their praise...lifting Him up, and not on a cross, but on His throne exalting every thing He does for me and my family.

No man will get His glory... but I am so thankful, so very humbled and overwhelmed by all of the time being spent, the dinners, the gas cards, the gifts given to us from your lack.  You will indeed be blessed by God Himself for giving.  You have given from your hearts.

God is meeting our needs each day, we don't even need to ask, we just KNOW and believe that He will provide everything ....I got tires yesterday, that I did not even know that I needed.

He is willing to do far more than I could ever ask or even think, and He is using you! 

Calli just loves when I embarrass her :)  I really do not like clowns at all, but I could not resist this one,  She was just all smiles to  us on a really hard day.  When I wanted to cry, I put on a red nose, tea bags on my ears for earrings, and did a hobbly wobbly doddle bop dance on my feet.  It felt good :)

I want to leave you with a good song by Hillsong.  Music can be such a strong element in your attitude.  Be careful what you listen to.  A song, can inspire love, hate, rage, lust, depression, worship, courage etc.....  What are you listening to?  How do you feel after a song- hyped, soothed, fearful, sad, depressed, encouraged, lustful? 

What are the words saying?  This is just a simple song, but inspires me to worship, and reminds me how awesome God is, and how much He sends people to our rescue..

Came to my Rescue

Falling on my knees in worship
Giving all I am to seek your face
Lord all I am is yours

My whole life
I place in your hands
God of Mercy
Humbled I bow down
In your presence at your throne

I called you answered
And you came to my rescue and I
I wanna be where you are

In my life be lifted high
In our world be lifted high
In our love be lifted high