|Calli and Aidan Winter 2000|
THESE ARE THE CHILDREN GOD HAS GIVEN ME, HE HAS BEEN GOOD TO ME.
I found this picture today, with the scripture taped to it. Looking back, I wish that I would have kept that scripture at the forefront of my mind.
So many regrets, mistakes and decisions made...based on emotions.
God has given me two beautiful children. The only thing a parent ever desires... truly when their child is born, is that they will be healthy, have 10 fingers and toes, be illness free... live a long life.
Today I am reminded, once again, that life goes by too quickly. The days... years.... have evaporated before me. So many days, hours, and moments I have wasted on stupid junk- time wasters. So much energy I have wasted on trying to change others, and trying to control situations that no one can control, but God.
This time of year, we are all thinking of what we can change for the better...
this year, I want to live simple, focus my energy and attention on my children and my husband- the family God has given to me.
This year, I want to forgive, and let go, and move on.
This is my earnest prayer...
to give control over to God- it is definate
for more patience and gentleness while parenting my children
for love to increase in my heart so I can be a good wife to Mike
for joy, peace, and trust to envelope my brain and filter out the chaos so that all I can see is beauty
to sing again, even when I don't feel like singing or when the world tells me there is nothing to sing about
to be humble and admit when I am wrong and to seek peace and pursue it
to listen and stay in the presence of God
to find strength and contentment that only God can give.
There is much more...so much more, that God needs to change in my heart. This song, really is what I need to do the most...be still and know that God is God....let Him work, let him speak, let Him control, let Him move, while I stay still.