So many times
In the last year
I have had pages
pour out from my gut
from my tongue,
from my fingers,
into the air....
I so dearly wanted to capture them
to remember, to learn from them
I wanted them
so very much
to stay
and teach us all
to remember....
but they were gone.
in the spans of the sky
in the envelopes of time...
they were frozen
STUCK
unable to detach
and appear
here
on this page
for you
so with that...
I now write...again...slowly...easing back
I. Am. Sorry.
People have written, wondering how we are...
my response is always honest...
however not always pleasing...
I read something recently on Pinterest:
"It is none of my business what you think of me."
They say a picture is worth a thousand words...
right now, I do not have many words...
some of you are thinking...
"Wow, finally...no words for Lucy..."
It is none of my business what you think of me...
I am keeping that one pasted to my forehead for a while :)
Here a few pictures...
This is Aidan- my how he has grown....
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| Mike- being pensive, me being...me |
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| REST |
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| FREEDOM- lost a lot, gave a lot away... |
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| fat lazy babies |
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| Shaya is still looking for Calli...literally LIVES in her room |
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| I miss everything about you...without you... |
there will be more pictures
and words
be patient with me..
if you are reading this...
you certainly are a patient person..
Here are 3 videos,
one to challenge you and make you think about
children fighting for their lives each day
one to make you crack up
one to help you understand where Aidan is
Blessings, peace, liberty,love and unity in Jesus name to you
Something for you to watch...please watch it, take time, it is sad, but necessary:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oljTL1iuMmY
This one is to make you laugh....Mike, Aidan and I laughed REALLY hard
And you may not like rap or hip/hop
but Aidan listened to this song and it really really spoke to him...
so we played it and it spoke to our cores...
about him and his sister...
this may be a song a guy wrote about a girl,
but to Aidan, it is about her
here are the lyrics:
Battle Scars
by Lupe Fiasco & Guy Sebastian
These battle scars don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle...
Never let a wound ruin me
But I feel like ruins wooing me
Arrow holes that never close from cupid on a shooting spree
Feeling stupid ’cause I know there ain’t no you and me
But when you’re trying to beat the odds up
Been trying to keep your nods up and you know that you should know
And let her go but the fear of the unknown
Holding another lover strong sends you back into the zone
With no Tom Hanks to bring you home
A lover not a fighter on the front line with a poem
Trying to write yourself a rifle, maybe sharpen up a song
To fight the tanks and drones of you being alone
I wish I never looked, I wish I never touched
I wish that I could stop loving you so much
’Cause I’m the only one that’s trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren’t the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
’Cause it’ll never be over until you tell me it’s over
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle…
just leave then
You shouldn’t have, but you said it
hope you never come back
It shouldn’t have happened, but you let it
Now you’re down on the ground screaming “Medic!”
The only thing that comes is the post-traumatic stresses
Shields, body armors and vests
Don’t properly work, that’s why you’re in a locker full of hurt
The enemy within and all the fires from your friends
The best medicine is to probably just let them win
I wish I couldn’t feel, I wish I couldn’t love
I wish that I could stop ’cause it hurts so much
And I’m the only one that’s trying to keep us together
When all of the signs say that I should forget her
I wish you weren’t the best, the best I ever had
I wish that the good outweighed the bad
’Cause it’ll never be over until you tell me it’s over
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle…
’Cause you’ve set me on fire
I’ve never felt so alive, yeah
Now hope wounds heal but it never does
That’s because you at war with love
And I’m at the point of breaking
And it’s impossible to shake it
See, you hoped the wound heals but it never does
That’s ’cause you at war with love
Hope it heals but it never does
That’s ’cause you at war with love
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
These battle scars, don’t look like they’re fading
Don’t look like they’re ever going away
They ain’t never gonna change
Hope the wound heals but it never does
That’s ’cause you at war with love
You at war with love, yeah
That’s ’cause you at war with love
You at war with love, yeah
